:: medical studentitis

September 4, 2009

On Being Rather Bored In A Rotation

Filed under: medical studentitis, little SEA dot, Posted at: 1:18 pm

I have been back for close to 4 weeks now - oh how quickly time has passed!

I am at a community hospital, too far away from home, much further from my GP’s. In these minutes, as I wait for my consultant to return from what I gather is an important meeting, as the air-con above me whirls in a soothing drone, as it dries the perspiration from the (unnecessary) mask wearing I have to endure in addition to the intense humidity, I wait. As that defines my position as a medical student: the wait.

I have things to say, but that moment shall have to - quite teasingly - wait.

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August 13, 2009

On Short Notes: Job

Filed under: medical studentitis, Posted at: 9:46 pm

I came back home a few days ago. With much anticipation, trepidation and to a significant degree, perspiration.

I received the news of our job applications whilst in the coach, as we passed along the Malaysian highway; my best friend on the other line, her voice crisp and clear - a reminder that these matters ought not to be forgotten. For they are always closer than you think. Bound inextricably by fate, by chance. By e-mail.

I am happy with my choice; I must admit I am not thoroughly over the moon because I put less weight into this than any average medical student does. My heart had told me to pick this hospital; if one should ever faithfully listen to any organ in the body, that should be it.

So here it goes: my first working steps. In truth, I am a little fearful; I do not know why. It does not come out of incompetence; I know what I am signing up for. It comes from the inescapable realisation that I can’t fuck things up anymore - with patients’ lives, with my life and with my academic future.

I can only pray for guidance.

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