On Simplicity
“I find myself wondering whether this is all worth it, if what we’re doing is enough. The way the Medical School gives us these outrageous exams alongside the lacklustre guidance; I don’t think I understand it. I don’t think I ever will.”
A pause; a breather.
“Has this ever compromised your abilities as a junior doctor?” I asked.
“No,” he replied, rather matter-of-factly; that short punctuated word dispersing through the air so many nights ago. That one word sufficiently silenced that conversation, as if it had placed its arrogant foot down; as if all notions, thoughts, ideas and desires could be restrained with a singular yes or no. With certainty.
It takes much strength to imagine what lies on the other side of my Finals. I hardly believe it was just days ago.
I was in the cafeteria of a local major hospital early this morning, listening to a group of students exploring the logistics of a Carpal Tunnel Syndrome exam station - all Singlish laced; mee goreng on their plates. The humidity was burying us in its watery grave; yellow skins against cheery lemon chairs. A mug of hot teh tarik in my hands.
Even this could make me think of you.
hey hun!
you back home now?
enjoy your holidays!!
hope to see you in med VI *fingers crossed*
Comment by aly — December 2, 2008 @ 10:39 am
ALY! You enjoy your holidays too…whilst I am simmering in COMPLETE BOREDOM within these walls of such sterile a place (in culture! in hygiene!).
Do be sure to make me envious of your exciting round the world trip. Frequent updates, you hear?!
Comment by pinkmutton — December 3, 2008 @ 11:50 am
u’re starting ur electives so soon!!?? aren’t u keen ;p dun forget to give me the good news when results r out :>
Comment by Jun — December 5, 2008 @ 7:45 pm